The Ridiculousness of Wasting Minutes on Wasted Minutes

Have you ever realized how many minutes of your life has been wasted feeling wronged, judged, powerless, unworthy, unproductive, etc. and then spent even more minutes nitpicking all the mistakes you or others have made? Trying to figure it all out? Staying in the drama of it? And therefore wasting more minutes on anything except what you want to experience in your precious life?

Typing this because it’s been happening daily but the good news is that I’ve been noticing it. Presence is step 1. Before I noticed that I was spending minutes sometimes even hours ruminating and bemoaning, I just did it without noticing, which meant it had total power over me.

On an even bigger scale, I’ve also become aware that I wonder what the meaning of life is so much, I obsess over what happens after death so much, and feel lost without a center often times that my life passes me by. Anyone else? Just me?

Life doesn’t happen later when I’ve figured it all out. It doesn’t happen when I wake up tomorrow morning, it doesn’t happen the boring tasks are done, it doesn’t happen when a momentous event comes along, it doesn’t happen after my least favorite yoga pose is over. It’s happening now.

Minutes add up. Until you look back on years and years of not truly having a happy life experience. There is a sense of urgency in waking yourself up to notice where you have erroneously been wasting minutes being so upset over wasted minutes.

The cure for myself and you is to take right action now. If you’re like “what’s the right action, Janan”, the answer to that is whatever it takes for you to know what is right for you. Rightness comes when you’ve journeyed out of your head. Getting present is creating space for rightness. Rightness arrives when you create a home for it to arrive.

What is right and true will be individual to you. You’ll know it’s arrived when you feel it in your body: you can relax, you feel lighter, feel activated, feel in charge. From here, the next right action will appear without over-efforting. This is being in flow and being present. Your minutes will never be wasted like this.