Kill Doubt or Be Killed

I’ve always been a dreamer, and of such grand dreams. I’ve had teachers and supposed mentors in the past tell me to reign it in and be more realistic. No matter what, my mind and heart are magnetized toward leaving the biggest imprint possible on this planet.

What stops me isn’t fear. It isn’t failure. It isn’t rejection. It’s doubt. I can get over what people think of me and I can get over looking like a fool or a failure in the interim of chasing my biggest dreams. It’s the doubt that’s been eating me alive. I have been doubting if I do have the capability to see it all through. I guess there’s a little fear at the end, because in that doubt of it I can do it, I fear if the doubt is correct and I spend my entire life grinding for what I want and I don’t get it… well, wasted life. I do fear that.

I woke up this morning seeing this clearly and I know now I must kill doubt or it will kill me. All the poisonous fruits that blossom off doubt are killing me too, as mentioned above with the fear my life will amount to nothing because I didn’t do it right. Doubt is different than insight and learning, yet for awhile they presented themselves as the same thing. Yes, “learning” can be a poison apple, too.

I kill doubt right now by taking action. Every day, I will do at least 3 things that progress my dream, even if I’m “not sure” they’re the right things. As soon as this blog post is complete, I’ve got the first thing lined up. It doesn’t matter if it’s the right thing. Because I’m the right thing.

If anyone is reading this: be merciful and kind, and kill your doubt right now.